so when i say that it is a new day this is a metaphor for how i have been feeling. things are different, new, wonderful and all the time the same. i for the first time feel like i am doing right. that i have found what i want and know that i am moving forward in the right way. this year is already moving so fast. i cant believe that it is already april. it feels like just weeks ago it was december and i was fighting over what i had and hadnt done. and now there is now fighting. now there is only happiness. i know that happiness is relative and i know that it can all be taken away but at the same time there is no need to worry. i know that at the happiness i have now is not going anywhere. i can feel it in my heart and in my head. there is so much that i wish i could express but words are not enough.
it is like flying and falling at the same time. scared and excited all at the same time. waiting to see what will happen next. knowing that i have no idea what in the world could be coming. i have no clue what the net day will bring and it is beyond wonderful. this feeling of not know the wonderfulness that keeps me going. I know it is going to continue and that makes it that much better.
For so long i have been so sad. depressed really and now it is like the only thing i know how to do is to be happy. yes i have cried once or twice but it is because of things that really dont matter. the only thing that matters now is the fact that i for the first time in a long time am truly happy. there is nothing more wonderful then the way i feel today. i only wish that everyone could feel as i feel. know what i know. love as i love. it is then and only then will they get it.
until i can explain better i leave you with this.
love is all you need
