So they say that what you do on new years sets the bar for the rest of the year. Looking back on 2007 I am beginning to believe this. Before i talk about my new years resolutions, last night and what i plan for the rest of the year i want to look back on last year.
2007: I would have to say that this was the hardest year of my life. I do think that what i did last new years set the stage for the rest of my year. Last new years was spent fighting with my ex. The rest of the year went something like that. Not necessarily fighting with my ex but fighting to keep up, get by, and move forward. I think that i struggled more last year than any of the previous years and well i am stronger for it i guess.
The Good of 2007: I graduated from college! That would be the biggest thing. Next i would have to say that i realized that sometimes it is ok to be selfish and do for yourself. Next i got a job a big kid job a real honest to god job that pays the billsish. I moved into an apartment that i love and feel at home in. I bought a new car that i love as well. My mom getting engaged.
The Bad of 2007: Losing the trust and the friendship of people close to me. Losing a love. Falling in and out of love. having my heart broken more than once. kicking my ex out of my apartment. Fighting with the family. Not talking to certain family members because of imagined insults. And so many more things that i wish hadn't happened but they did and i am a better person because of it.
The Ugly of 2007: realizing that you can love someone with all your heart and not be in love with them. This is the hardest lesson that i have ever and will ever learn.
2008: Moving forward on to this new year i have to say that i am very positive. I am ready for the newness and the wonderfulness that this new year is going to bring. I have to say that if last night is any indication of how the rest of my year will go, then i am looking at a great new year. Last night i went to a party at this guy andy's house and while yes the party started out slow it got better as he night went on. I drank, played poker, and ended the night cuddling with someone that makes me feel safe. It felt very nice to just be in the arms of someone sweet and kind.
The Resolution: Last year my resolution was to lose weight. well that happened for a while but then i gained it back. I have decided that while yes it would be a great thing for me to do but i dont think that making a resolution about it is the best way of going about it. So back to the point. This years resolution is to make myself happy. I have spent the last 22 years of my life making everyone else happy and it is now my turn. I am going to do what i need to do to make myself happy. I want to find true love and be in love and make it work. 2008 is my year and it is going to be wonderful.
